time

this isn't me missing you
this is me missing the me i used to be
you taught me how to be alone
and i learned my lesson in your absences
i read what you leave in public spaces
the songs you reference
the quotes you quote
i can feel you thinking about me

give me sun

i fear you the most

i fear you the most because it has already been done before

i never thought you could hold a whole soul in your hands, but you can

in the veins are the secrets that will run through, but will never leave

the brachial artery screaming please don't hurt me

or maybe it’s the fact that I was too shy to think I could have more

or maybe I was too innocent to think that people could have bad intentions

or maybe it’s the fact that I’m to scared to think that maybe one day you will see me the way I see myself 

or maybe I'm being too irrational 

to think that someone could hold your soul in there hand

maybe it's just your heart but at times it feels that there is more to it

so my dearest darling let me just say I love you first, just this once

and maybe, just maybe you can hold my soul in your hands for a little while