I'll start slow
Because
starting with the really new me just might scary you off
So let’s
to rip of the band aid
Let’s
pull of the huddie you wear every day because you didn't have time to pick out
something else
But
am I aloud to talk about myself
REAL
TALK
I feel like I’ve told the story
I feel like I’ve told the story
Real
talk, I know just how to tell people what they want to hear
But
right now, I’m going to tell you the truth and maybe the same story over and
over
Of the,
I don't want to hear it
Sophomore
year I was drowning and my parents didn't even know it, because they're busy
Having
a stay at home mom that work at home all the time, is probably the biggest
piece of BULL
REAL
TALK I wish I had the courage to say NO, and for the love SHUT UP
But I
just write it instead
REAL
TALK love scares the living shit out of me and I pull away from time to time
because one day I will be left with nothing but ripped opened letters and a
messy room.
REAL
TALK I hate your mom
REAL
TALK I've been going to therapy sense the sixth grade
I
hate being seen as the goodie two shoes, because I’m not,
I'm
just better at hiding it
I
leave mutual early to I can go and cry in my car instead
Because
having a bigger house isn't worth leaving the old ward
I
miss Jr, year, because I only first met you, and I didn't love you yet
I've
never had a really good girlfriend, but I balm it on myself
I
regret a lot senior year, wished I wasn’t addicted to checking off the to do
list
I
wished I was more like my Dad because he's happier with his life
REAL
TALK I forget, like a lot and I don’t know why
REAL
TALK having a Grandma this Bi-polar scares the shit out of me too
Because
that crap is in the gene pool
And
I'm already half way there with seasonal depression
But
at least I get better in the summer right
I
feel alone in a room filled with people because I don’t have a click to go to
But I’m
going to better in college and hold on to friendships with both hands not just
one
Because
we have to hold on to life with both hands because you don’t know when it will
turn into sand